i'm not sure how to put this but all i know is i'm not going to share anymore than i say here so don't beat it out of me.

this week has been an interesting one for me. i have for sure been riding on an emotional roller coaster and i fear it will ruin my weekend. the reason i say that is my feeling have been changing and i don't know why they have, all i know is that whatever i'm feeling right now will not go any further than just a feeling because i'm not lucky. maybe there is something out there that says why and i'm not lucky but i have yet to find out...if you catch my drift...

the reason for me mentioning all of that is that this week has taught me something and that something is to stick with it and have all the courage you can get. maybe it's the literary analysis paper for english comp talking but i don't know. all i know is that right now, i have no courage. i'm so scared and i fear this weekend because of it.

yes i know, i'm going to Dallas to see shows, to socialize with friends (maybe getting to know others more), to have fun and many of you would love to go but that doesn't mean i'm not scared about going.

the trip to and from is going to be incredibly long but i suppose that's nothing to complain about. 26 hours on a bus is worse compared to 6 hours to and from Dallas. yet, we watched movies on that trip, we aren't on this one so i have to occupy my time tomorrow afternoon for at least 2.5 hours as we travel to Oklahoma City.

i just hope i have fun. that's all i have to say.

well anyway, i think i've rambled enough. the title says everything: I NEED A BREAK FROM MY EMOTIONS because i'm tired of playing their games.